Here and now

The truth is,

I'm still in pain.

Ade tak orang yg boleh tolong niea heal this pain or somehow make it go away?

I'm not enjoying this, seriously.

I feel empty,

someone need to fill this life with awesomeness.

Well, i know my mum is still trying.

My sisters are super busy.

My brothers, dudes...they don't care lah!

The truth is,

I missed being loved

and to love someone.

I missed feeling numb when I fall in love.

I missed feeling shy when meeting that someone --> sampai saket perut!

I missed making someone happy.

I wanna love again.

The truth is,

I care okay.

A lot!

Does anyone care?

Please do.

(lmao)

Takpe lah.

The truth is,

Niea okay je :)

no problems!

I'm healing

I'll get better in time.

Just needs distraction to get things off my mind

Things will turn out right sooner or later.

i believe

p/s: Where are you future bf? ;p

I can only watch

I grew up with them...
I watched them falling in love again and again
I watched them making plans
to reach the wedding aisle
I walked down there in a white dress
as a bridesmaid.

They seemed happy
taking that risk of living in a different lives together.
The years past with children of their own
Making love through ups and downs
Beautiful babies
strong built house
days and nights with strangers
they were everything that they wanted to be
Lovers

But not for long...
things changed flowers are no more blooming
smiles are no more to be seen
laughters are shaded by the frowns
only tears that flooded the relationship
I watched their lives shattered a million pieces
They care less about the bond that they have made
The children that they have carried
They long for each other but lust took over to somebody else.

Sins were made
tears rolling every
night words are not spoken
silent in the house of a family.

What lies in this heart of the woman?
The man is no where to be seen
The nights blinded the man itself
lips promised lies
heart despised

I pity their lives
but then again,
It reflects the lives of ourselves
Us human,
only weaknesses on our face
tempted to sin our skin with dirty love

InsyaAllah
avoidance is possible.

HappyBirthdayQistina

Happy Birthday Dinie Qistina

Dear sister,
20th May 2011, you turned 19 and you're not getting any younger.
We are all so proud of you of how u turned out to be.
I hope all your extremely huge dreams n wishes come true.
Growing up is not easy and i hope u'll be patience with what life brings you.
okay. Keys jangan la poyo sgt bila da besar ni. Quotations for you:

"cuba lembut siket"
"be expressive keys"
"take that risk"
"what are you waiting for?"
"Why are you crying?"
"Don't wait any longer"
"Tak takot ke?"

I know u know what i mean....kalau tak, buat2 faham je laaa....haish!
But Keys, niea kan ade. Niea syg keys :)
I love you Qistina! No matter how annoying you can get or how loud you can be ... I would still catch a grenade for you....~~(eww)

You guys look cute together...

Be happy always and goodluck love!

Happy Birthday and Happy Mother's Day!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIARINA PUTRI
AND
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MAMA AND KAKWANNA!

That very day was a tiring day for me. You see, everytime we want to celebrate a birthday, it would be me who planned everything...well, almost everything. The food, the place, the budget, the presents and the cake. My mum or dad or bro will give me the money and i'll be buying all of the above...

When it was present time, i have to handle em. I had to give the present one by one bcos...

DANIA: Okay first presnt! Ni daripada......mama! and...ayah! (they don even know wats in it)

MAMA: Haaaa....tu paling mahal! Sebab mama bagi! Niea, ape mama bagi?

Then everybody laughed. It was so obvious laaa...

I had to prepare a lot of presents bcos i have 7 sibs....mom n dad....

they will never know wat they GAVE to the birthday person... heheeee...

Tapi, best la sbb meriah sgt. They all will be laughing and guessing wat they gave to him/her.

Adam, Tia and well (sort of) Annabella....
had sang to their mother, Wan Hazlina for mother's day.
I have uploaded the video in youtube
Check it out. They were all so cute! haih~

I love you mummy.
Happy Mother's Day :)

Today, we decided to visit our sister, Deena Natasya in Seremban, TKC.
Then, we went to Jusco in Seremban 2. Saja nak jalan-jalan dgn si manja mama sorang ni....

Deena ni manja ngan abang die jugak....manja sangat tuh.... tapi ye lah, mahathir malu nk manje2 ngan adek die.

We bought some of our needs like shampoo n other feminine items :)

Mahathir....Die kene tengok je la we, ladies shopping. Mom, like always...she loves them shoes. She bought two...

Oh yaa....kite ade makan kat secret recipe...makan banyak laaa. We actually wanted to eat at the pizza hut but the line was......long. Pastu, ade orang EMO. LOL ;D


Then, when it was time to say goodbye, ascha (pelakon air mate) gedik2 nanges....like usual. It was funny actually. hahaa. And off we went...It was raining, heavily. I tried to sleep but it was hard. Mahathir already fell asleep on my lap...We both were listening to our own music. He was listening to his mp3. Me, i listen to my phone. We don't dislikes dad's music....we just....love our music more. Sorry daddy. We still love you :)

At least niea dapat jumpa adek niea tercinta tuh. Dah lame sangat x jumpa kot!
Till next time Ascha.
iloveyou.

Love Wedding

WEDDING, WEDDING, WEDDING!


You know how some girls planned to get marry when they are 27 yrs old...

Well, i wanna get marry soon. Its rather stressful watching all my friends getting engaged, married and having children... Don't get me started on the ones that are divorced...! I mean, i'm only 22 this year but my friends are having their third children. ENVY!

I always fantasized of planning my own wedding. Its goin to be grand of course. Having Annabella is making me more n more wanting to get marry and have kids of my own. Khairul is a good man. He is caring, loving, responsible but.....yeah. hahaaa :D

DRESSES I HAVE IN MIND:

Over ke? Lawa? Imagine me wearing them...




NOW, I THINK THIS DRESS IS AWESOME!
I love the ribbon wrapped on the waist...It shows the perfect figure of a body.

I DONT KNOW IF THIS DRESS IS SUITABLE FOR A BRIDE BUT IT IS PRETTY :)
KAN?!


I DON'T KNOW ABOUT THIS ONE....
but its very....different :)

Where should i have my wedding? :)

A. By the beach!

Totally romantic! i know!!! I dont like sands in my shoes...

B. In the park, outside wedding...

totally awesome....unless it rains!

c. Fairytales wedding!

naaahhh~

The rings:

Ariel, Belle and Cinderella's!

What about the cakes?

which one? hahahaa.... the cakes are gorgeous!

Nak kahwin la. Gatal ke tuh? lol
oh...wattahell! :)

Scenes

Mom and dad had their 32nd anniversary

We have 5 rabbits

Wawan and Qis

OMG, Miea da besar and comel sesgt2 nya!

Annabella, she looked really good in pink!

Pity this lil boy

Adam broke his arm. He accidentally trip over a wire and fell.

What else? :)

Fresh start with shawls

My name is Dania Marissa and I only started to wear tudung in the eve of 2011!
Here's my story...

Since I was a lil girl, my mum actually told me to wear tudung when I turned 18. Yes, I wear tudung at school but not outside. You see, I was a tomboy when I was just 9 till I was 15. I dressed up like a boy and even acted like one. It wasn't nice, I'm telling you! I had short spiky hair, my WALK was funny and the way i speak was a lil rough~ Maybe too rough. My siblings actually hated me.

Then, my mum open a shop in Ampang Point where she hired me to be a promoter. I was 15 yrs old.... When I started, my mum actually took my cap off and threw it away. She was like "No more caps niea. You're a beautician now." So i agree. I was a promoter, a beautician and a hairdresser (I took classes when I was 16)

It began... Me and my mom shopped for girly stuff...like dresses, heels and halter top and bla bla blaa. The colors are all bright. I can no longer wear black! Mum actually forbid me too...except for the clothes that actually looked good black!

I felt pretty. I felt sexy. I felt like...I was the centre of attraction! It was awesome that I actually learned to put on make up! But then...

I got lost in those sexy clothes, those bare backs, those lipgloss, the colorful leggings, and the tight pants. I have done wrongs to myself. I was actually fooled by the way I looked. I was beautiful in the outside, so beautiful that I did not thank for it.

A few times I had glanced of images....images of myself wearing tudung. I looked beautiful. But i did not do anything. But it had me for a few times. I actually dreamt of it. Then suddenly, at the age of 21, 28th Dec 2010.....I woke up fromm my sleep, crying. I cried for a few minutes and just stare at the ceiling. Then I stood up...Looking for sejadah and telekung. They were no where to be found. I CRIED hard! I called my sisters, Qis and Ascha.

"Qis, I need your help. Do not go back just yet. Wait for me." I told her.

So I came home alone and went to see my sisters at home.

I told them, "Qis, Ascha...Niea nak pakai tudung"
They said, "Alhamdulillah....." and they smiled.

Then they helped me... They had wore tudung earlier, before I did and I am older than them!
So, I started covering my hair with scarf on the 30th of Dec 2011. I am so proud of what i have become. Although it was a lil late, But i know, it was still the right thing to do. Better late than never right?! Everybody is happy with my change and I do too! I will try my best to keep going to be this good, InsyaAllah.







Alhamdulillah...